
i'm in love with you,baby.
sigh. i can't sleep at the moment & idk why. what i know,i've been thinking bout baby. i miss her so much though i just met her yesterday. tampines. i had my haircut there. it was okay,i liked it though haha. i'm sorry i'm not asleep right now dear. guess i'll listen to bella's lullaby then i'll force myself to bed. hee.
sigh sigh sigh. i'm not meeting baby today. she's going to some fiance thingy later on. sigh.
i miss you baby. :(:(
hi everyone. i'm back again. 1st of all, sorry for not updating for long again, been busy with lots of things includg the important one, common test. everything went okay. just okay. apart from that i've not been heavily involved in anything else. other than with my beloved girlfriend. however i've never been good to her since idk when. mistakes after mistakes after mistakes i did. sigh. i'm not happy at myself for mistreating her. i'm doing this not to make it seem that she's always right okay,its just that the thing about myself. idk. i'm just not good enough. nevermind.
went to the clinic on monday evening. ranted everything to the doctor bout the pains i'm facing,physically that is. basically my left knee. i've been getting the stinging sensation when i start doing any vigorous training. guess what the doctor said? my ligament aren't that flexible again. it can snap off anytime. next,my back. nothing much. just abbrasion between bones which causes pain,i think. i think i'm dying. idk.
i've been feelg pain on my right shoulder whenever i raised my arms or stretch out my right hand while holding up things. whenever i try to stretch my shoulders,there will be this particular eerie sound coming out from my shoulders. its scary. whenever i lay down on my bed,my right shoulder facing down,it will have the same eerie sound again. like bones rubbing against each other. i asked someone what's wrong with it & after she touched/'scanned' it,she said,its gonna dislocate anytime. like anytime. sigh. my bones are all damaged. scrap. idk. i'm dying i guess.
i seemed relax on the outside. but on the inside....no....
school,my health etc. i'm not seekg sympathy or anything. pathetic right? i'm just stating out whatever is in my heart. sigh.
i love you dear. i'm sorry for whatever i've done.